Too many thoughts to pick just one
Which one to write on? I have but none
None worth the ink in my dying pen
None worth confess to my one lone friend
I could write on love, but it's been lacking
Turned my back & sent it packing
I could write on the sky and the stars above
But they're lost in the lights this city loves
I could write on dreams of a better tomorrow
But I'm up to my knees in bitter cold sorrow
Tonight's not the night to write down my thoughts
Scattered & tortured, psychotic & distraught
But I can't put my head down without thinking maybe
If I just get it all out - that I could be free
But what am I thinking, what's in my head?
Too fast to catch what's already dead
I think many out there have faced scattered, disorganized, and demoralized thoughts like these. Actually, this is good as it genuinely reflects a mood that all of us are caught up in at one time or another!
I have a spelling correction to suggest; fourth line in the first stanza, confess should be confessing? Also, meter would improve if you changed
'But can't admire through lights this city loves'
'but they're lost in the lights this city loves'.
This needs a stronger title that will pull the reader in; I suggest "That I Could Be Free" (your words in the last stanza).
You have talent and confidence, pretty lady! This has the makings of a good piece!