im not sure what youre thinking or why youre not blinking but while my heart was sinking you could have been speaking to say any other words than something i already heard
after stars and wishes are gone ill say so long but im a star and im wishing so strong to be where i belong and im scared to be wrong of just playing along
how long til u approach me and we can forget about the past is this our final feeling or could we make this last im faling fast im not going to crash im just gonna laugh in your face til you crack this shits getting wack do you see any of me or what youre missing i set myself free i dont have time to just be id rather just leave but it seems youre stuck on me while im stuck on we and together were dying no more lying never crying only deciding if ill be residing but i still cant choose so i continue to be used by you and now im through though im still not getting through to you
i know i shouldnt judge you or call you out your name but the way you ignore it it just isnt the same when i know that i could get you why do we have to play this game
how do you creeping in my dreams its like i live in a new themed scene and right now i like it im not ready to go i keep losing touch with this place i call home
im dreaming of you but youre sleeping with her and it only makes my days pass in a blur cuz while im stuck on you you'll never go first and i have no balls but im about to burst fuck this curse im in love not with you but him and right now i feel dim its not just to fit in but for you id put my heart on a limb cuz youre sexy and im crazy and its creepy how i know things
omg im surrounded by you and i want you so bad i dont know what to do dont let me do this im falling from true but i love you so much i know you dont have a clue u were mine and im left in the dark this last time
he calls me lady while you were just fading from my memory you try to severe me from your reality but im already in this insanity dont fucking run from me
fuck yo couch bitch you aint shit you need to get a better grip on the ledge that you stand on that you now grab on cuz youre slippin and youre bouts to be gone and right now i feel like im being strong for you but i know i could always be wropng and thats why i just play along cuz i know it wont be too long before i know the truth about this youth that surround me and then i see you crying and its hard to stay angry but i wish at least youd say sorry and not use the excuses to play with my heart or make me run around the park cuz its getting dark al;ready and i want tot hink were steady but how could i know youre ready im just a lettee and i wish you would let me choose not to be used and it hurts to worst when i think its for my words cuz what else do i have but my words and you play like you dont fuckin believe me i already know youre lying thats why you fake like youre trying to go sky diving im already flying bside you but when youre ready to hit the ground ill leave though i might not decieve you thinkin maybe one day youll be true
I thoroughly enjoyed this. I commented the other one first then was looking at mine that you commented and clicked next.
"i dont have time to just be id rather just leave but it seems youre stuck on me while im stuck on we and together were dying no more lying never crying only deciding if ill be residing but i still cant choose so i continue to be used by you and now im through though im still not getting through to you"
I'm not sure if I relate but this really reminds me of my own situation. I've been with the girl I'm with now on and off for five years and she seems now more crazy about me then ever. Yet, I just have it instilled deep in my mind that we won't work out though I love her with all my heart. I feel like I'm judging her performance subconsciously, like I'm waiting for her to persuade me to stay here. I try to explain to her so often that (I tell myself) this is our last chance and I feel like she doesn't put forth enough effort.
"i know i shouldnt judge you or call you out your name but the way you ignore it it just isnt the same when i know that i could get you why do we have to play this game"
I know I can have her. I've ruined plenty of relationships for her that probably would have flourished if I didn't exist. I feel like she's [censored]in with my head.
"and its creepy how i know things"
I wonder if you mean what this makes me think of? Sometimes when people don't wanna tell me things, I just know. Things there's no possible explanation for my knowin; I'm sure of.
I dunno. Again, I wish I could provide more criticism but have none. Sorry for the life story but it felt like you expressed my feelings. It's too late now but I will be sure to read more of your work.