I still remember the conversation
I still feel the tears.
recalling all the memories
that caused in me such fear.
I still feel the breaking
that your hands inflicted.
I remember falling down
praying that the pain be lifted.
I remember lashing out
running, changing, all inside.
and the days that I have searched
for a place that I could hide.
I remember birthdays
cry through our old songs.
wandering over in my head
what I did so wrong.
What did I forget in you
which sign could I have missed?
what did I do so wrong
that I should have to live through this.
I built my life around a love
a love that I had built for three.
I held that love for all of you
and kept none back in store for me.
you took the children and the house
broke me down, and left me there.
took from me the trust I gave you
and left me but the clothes I wear.
I gave you every part of me
and thats exacty what I lost.
Its you who made all the mistakes
Its me who has to pay the cost.
you shook apart all I have built
broke it down in just one day.
thats all it took a moments time
for you to steel my life away.
I wish the best for you and yours
I pray that you sleep well at night.
as for me I'm far too tired
for me to finish out this fight.
you'll never fully understand
the reoccuring dreams at night.
nor why after all these years
that I can't shake the erge to fight.
I'm sorry that it took this long
that I could never give to you.
things that you have found in life
and all the things the others do.
just know that I will not be friends
you are asking far too much.
there are things I cant accept
Ideas that I will never clutch.
all my efforts now in vain
forgiveness is now so far away.
thus the reason for me calling
I have wiped my hands today.