I won't be like this forever
and I won't be with "him" forever,
I hate to say I like one "guy" rather than the other.
I feel like I'm living in a soap opera,
real life quarrels, as opposed to depressing,
sappy love stories. I wish to have
a wonderful relationship like in those stories. Even if some omniscient being tells me,
“This isn’t right, Marissa!" ,I won't care!
I don’t lead both of the guys on, ever,
do I? No! I’m a good and proper girl.
I long to know what I should do.
Even though I may not suppress my Confusion, at least I have my dignity.