Im done -------------------------------------------
i finally quit
i set down the bottle
put down the pipe
and i look forward to tomorrow
i act like im strong
that i can do this all day long
deep down inside i know that i am wrong
i never thought i would be this way
im weaker than ever
but im afraid to tell
im scared to death
and on this thought i dwell
im sick as fuck
and no matter how hard i try
i cant stop these tears that i cry
sobreity brings so many gifts
but in the time it takes to get them
all i can hear is the clock tick
my disease will never go away
and for my past i will always pay
those blackouts that i had always had
only god knows what i did
and for that i am so sad
i almost died a million times
i dont even know if i commited any crimes
do you know what its like to not remember?
not just one night
but the whole month of december?
im 21 and have nothing to show
did i intend my life to be like this?
to that i can honestly say NO!!!!!!
Wow I too have nothing to show and will be 21 this Aug... I know as well how it is to know you should have been dead 10 times over.. from drug over doses and also from my own stupidity.... Also its NEVER too late to make a change for the better. "Better now than never"
great write! amazing A
BRAVO!. I ablsolutely loved this. I too am trying to put everything down. I want my life to better than what it is with alcohol and drugs. This is such an anspiration for me to keep trying to get sober and straight. Keep it up! I am looking forward to reading more of your work!