Ghost by dismentled

Oh beautiful Pain
how I need you again
ignite the razors touch
to feel Alive
a little slit
like to watch it Gush
fall to the floor
Vacate my mind
Enthralled in the rush
I’ll do it Again
Just one more
And the world goes hush…

But when it’s done
I will cry
with the world waiting outside
Don’t get me wrong
I don’t wanna die
just don’t wanna be Alive
And deep inside
This world of mine
A piece of me will die
Maybe I’m fucked
And so are you,
at least I felt Alive…

Than I’ll crawl
into my lil hole
adhering your Apathy
and like a Pancreas
when it burst
than Maybe you’ll see
I’m just a waste
of used up space
Am I even here?
Until you fall
Wrenching your gut
Swallowing that heart in fear;

than you’ll remember
when you’re Slit
released of all your agony
than you’ll think
there might’ve been
Nothing left to be
Eclipsed in Pain
No right-No wrong
lusting for relief

Only than
forging now
might you know
what it is to be

In so much pain
you’d have such rage
if only you
had the energy
In a world
but not of it
Pleading for release
of inexhaustible Agony

Than perhaps maybe
you’ll know
just for a day
what its like
in a world
ignoring your decay

just like me
deep inside
A part of you died
but when you rise
back to your world
you won’t cry…

Embraced in love
friends and family
you’ll feel Alive
lushing in morphine
because of the slit
that beautiful pain
like a razor
ignited your empathy

for a split second
before you forget
what its like
in this everyday world for me.
…..
…..
And like a surgeon
After I release the pain
I’ll stop the blood
Lying my razor down
but it’s my life
and come tomorrow
I’ll do my “job”
drowning out the sound
of a million voices
that know of me not
Another ghost of the world
that nobody ever forgot.