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    dots Submission Name: Insecuritiesdots

    Author: jackz
    ASL Info:    24/F/OH
    Elite Ratio:    3.76 - 591/622/380
    Words: 168
    Class/Type: Deep Thought/Serious
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       This is my life

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    The hands on the clock are always moving,
    No matter what state of mind I may or may not be in.
    This I am sure of.

    Every morning the sun rises
    Every night the sun will set
    This I am sure of.

    Although I have these assurances in my life...

    I am filled with so many insecurities
    All this doubt

    At age 18 I left a home in which I was abused in,
    At age 19 I put that person where he belongs
    At age 20 I am recovering from a self inflicted gun shot wound.

    Depression is only a tip of the ice burg
    Hatred for myself is only the beginning of my story

    Disgusted... I am... with myself
    For I am no longer a strong person
    I have failed myself

    More than that,
    I have proven to those whom told me I'd fail...
    I have proven them right...

    This is what saddens me the most

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    I love what you have written and how it was said but....

    You have not failed, and you are strong because you are still here, still trying and still looking for what you should have had always.
    Those who said you would fail may have been write if when you were so far lost and so alone and hurt so much you had succeeded to end your life.
    There is a reason you are here, if only to write and post your experiences for others to read and maybe let some one else lost and alone and hurt know they aren't alone, it wasn't just them that was being hurt like that and there is someone with whom they have a bond with even if they don't "know" them.
    For what ever reason I was pulled to read that first post of yours I did, and for what ever reason I am drawn to you to what you are going through and hoping I can give you some peace of knowing that...

    Someone out there thinks you can do it. You can rise up from the ashes of what was behind you and soar.
    You can laugh love live and be and that is WONDERFUL!
    There is someone out here hearing you caring about you and sending you everything through thought prayer and hope I can.

    Remember you can always talk to me I will not judge I will not gossip and I will not turn my back and walk away!

    I'll sent you a pm with my myspace url as well
    | Posted on 2009-07-05 00:00:00 | by trynfinity | [ Reply to This ]
      This is a good piece... You set it up nicely for me with the sun rising/sun setting line as sure things. Then going through the painful things that have created insecurities put the icing on it. If this is true, what a way to relive those things...brave and fierce...I likes.

    Brian Poem
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    | Posted on 2009-06-14 00:00:00 | by Brianpoem | [ Reply to This ]
      This is so heavy. Is it all true?
    Whether autobiographical or not, it is good reading. It flows nicely and feels very real, which is something I value very much. Perhaps, just perhaps somone will read it who is traveling down the path of most destruction and be swayed back onto a safer track just from the comfort of reading a poem about someone else who has been down that far tpo frequently traveled road.
    | Posted on 2009-06-12 00:00:00 | by nolram | [ Reply to This ]
      you have not failed anyone. the fact that you have realized that you made mistakes makes you a better person and stronger than ever. being abused is something that you cant control and you survied. to me you have not failed, but survied a life that most people cant. and for that i envy you. courgae is the most difficult quality to possess and you most definatley have it.. forget your past and look forward to the future.
    | Posted on 2009-06-07 00:00:00 | by joezwells | [ Reply to This ]
      This is so sad, but it took confidence and courage to write, and it presents an outstretched hand that melts the heart of all that are here!

    You are loved by more people than you realize, and all want you to enjoy success and happiness! And that includes me foremost in the crowd, lovely lady!

    | Posted on 2009-06-06 00:00:00 | by Ron Cole | [ Reply to This ]

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