Description: Do all the stupid things i did... just made my journey that much more difficult but I suppose its true what I hear God doesn't put you through things you can't handle, he only puts you through the harder times he knows your strong enough to get through.
My Cloud Nine -------------------------------------------
I long for the sky above me to rain drops of vodka
To come home to a smorgasbord of drugs
Heroin Powder Pills
The ability to drink myself to oblivion
Due to all my fail dreams
To inject that drug into that needy vain of mine
A way to run from all this pain
*I and others have caused myself*
Ultimately to float above the clouds *even if its only for a few moments*
To run...
HIDE
Can't you see this is my way of protecting myself?
Holding it all in got me no where
The drugs make me happy,
Even if it is only for a few moments
It feels like an eternity to me
A life I have not lived
I'm a recovering alcoholic. In my drinking days, I thought I had found a demon who could destroy my other pain and demons. Instead, I later found I had just let another demon in my life to create even greater chaos.
It's hard for me to relate to this, but I admire your honesty in putting it out there. We all have our crutches, and I suppose it's our duty to walk freely one day.
But it's good that you realized "The drugs make me happy,
Even if it is only for a few moments"
that those are superficial moments, even though they carry the weight of the world. Or rather, remove that weight. It can be so hard to realize that when release can be had.
So you're stronger, you're clearer, and it seems you can at least see the path even if you've yet to step foot on it. I wish you luck.
Submission Name: My Cloud Nine
