Dropping dead weight by Raistlin Sith

i thought i understood
the way you lived your life
i felt you did the best you could
given all your strife

it's hard to lose a brother
in the best of circumstance
worse to be shunned by your mother
though you know I've worn those pants

i've become a father now
to the apple of my eye
and I no longer see how
you can give that reason why

why'd you have to dump me off
for a paycheck and a dick
and even though you sit and scoff
your book of wrongs is thick

you're meeting your granddaughter,
you fucking piece of shit
it will feel like slaughter
but she won't pay for it.

else i'd drop all the dead weight
turn these tables right around
i'd bail on you and all the hate
leaving neither to be found

and to envision your lies
only makes me sick
i wish she'll see you through my eyes
but I'll have to let her pick.

five years and nothing's changed
i'll always resent you
getting ever more deranged
with everything you do

you keep building up this wall
to hide you from your crimes
you refuse to heed my call
to admit all those times

that you traded me for speed
that you gave me to your friend
you had a monkey there to feed
and I was too young to defend

and i couldn't run away
so i never tried to fight
now there never goes a day
where i sleep through the night

it was my fucking virginity
not his to take or give
under the guise i'd see the trinity
god i wish i had a shiv

i would have killed the two of you
but the needle got me first
god knows how much i wanted to
but i couldn't beat the thirst