My Pain -------------------------------------------
Every time I self mutilated there is an underlining reason to it.
Each and every track on my arms screams with pain.
**Pain I tried to subdue temporarily of course**
After every meal my mind says NO but my body has an internal clock...
**Use the restroom it all needs to come back up.**
I am unsure why I am the way I am
I Look for answers...
I search for reasons...
But I search more for ways to help my pain...
Heal my wounds
**Just to make more**
Fill in the holes of my heart.
I can relate to this. My mind tells me the same thing each and every day. None the less, it was a good peice of writing. Your great at just diving in on exspressing how you feel. I'm sorry that I cant say much more, I was hasitant to comment, your writings are just so deep, I'm afriad that what I might say is just not good enough. I hope that you get some good comments on adive and other things that this peice and all your other peices are deserving of.
My response sent to the jack ass above is as follows
lmao is an ass hole response to someones work!! Especially when they are talking about things like being buliemic and cutting. But you wouldn't know what living like that is all about or even have any sympathy toward some one who does obviously, That was an out of line comment and you should either obstain from commenting on something you cannot understand or sympathize with in the future,
Think about it YOU REALLY SHOULD
My response to this post. Cutting, bulemia all these things are our own mind pushing us to constantly be perfect that anything less than that is unacceptable and cannot be loved. We look inward for the answer to what is wrong with me why doesn't anyone love me like everyone else gets loved. Why does it seem everyone I meet know am related to finds a way to use me or to hurt me. So we look for ways to make us "better" or for ways to punish ourselves for being bad.
This is your thoughts and they are not funny by any means,. they are honest true and they matter. Never think that they don't . Even if it's to someone you've never met except here in computer world may never "meet" They matter.