this was very powerful. im guessing you made a mistake or mistakes that had and end result that made you feel like how in the hell could you let yourself do this. i know how you feel i have made a million mistakes that made me feel like no one should care for me anymore. i can honestly say that it does get better. if you didnt feel like this then you would be right with everything you wrote. if you didnt feel like you were worth nothing and you felt like you did nothing wrong those are the people that don;t deserve a second or third or even fourth chance. you sound very remorseful for whatever it is you have done. so stop beating yourself up over it because you are a wonderful person for realizing your faults. you are worth it and i know you have to bring light into someones life. you sure as hell touched mine with this piece. it was amazing and full of emotion and you can tell it came from the heart. beautiful work! hang in there it only gets better. i promise.