I'm finding you were right dad
all this time I've been so wrong.
You predicted and you nailed it
I should have listened all along.
No one could love me
not enough to want to stay.
I am to broken and to flawed to care for
to be anything in any way.
Not worthy enough to fight for
not to see forever's light.
A failure a disappointment
only darkness there is no light.
You told me I should have listened
I had nothing worthy enough to give.
If I had I wouldn't be here
wishing I had never been.
Knowing that he loved me
and thought I was worth the fight.
But time went on and he realized
I brought for him misery not light.
Slowly I poison those who love me
and with disgust they look away.
if I had listened and not allowed them
their lives wouldn't have been hurt that way.
So what now are my choices
my options in this life?
To never again be poison
choking out all life.
You knew I would be this
no good in me to give.
So tell me what's the reason
I should continue
to allow myself to live?
| this was very powerful. im guessing you made a mistake or mistakes that had and end result that made you feel like how in the hell could you let yourself do this. i know how you feel i have made a million mistakes that made me feel like no one should care for me anymore. i can honestly say that it does get better. if you didnt feel like this then you would be right with everything you wrote. if you didnt feel like you were worth nothing and you felt like you did nothing wrong those are the people that don;t deserve a second or third or even fourth chance. you sound very remorseful for whatever it is you have done. so stop beating yourself up over it because you are a wonderful person for realizing your faults. you are worth it and i know you have to bring light into someones life. you sure as hell touched mine with this piece. it was amazing and full of emotion and you can tell it came from the heart. beautiful work! hang in there it only gets better. i promise.|
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