I take all these drops of hate put them in a bottle
Hate does not evaporate like other liquids
Its like oil
Then one day the bottle is FULL
This day has come!
Taking all those hellish years you put me through
Taking all those lonely nights
Maybe even a few hopefully moments ( only to be a crushing let down)
I took all those feelings felt
All those drops of hatred build up
All my rage fuming inside
I finally RELEASED IT
My drops of hatred could only fester for so long (what did you expect?)
My hopelessness could only become so strong until it overcame me...
Until I burst... Literally
Taking that 12 gauge shot gun to my stomach was my way of releasing
Do not misunderstand my motivations.
I did not want to die
But I also did not want to live with these feelings of uncontrollable hatred and rage.
So I took a risk and accepted the possibility of dying.
I am expressing to you all ill feelings are gone, all hatred has been dismissed.
For I almost took my own life for this result,
Can't you see?
My life could not truly begin with all those drops of hatred and rage built up.