be carefull grass isnt always greener,
and thanks for hearing me out Im a wreck and my life is a wreck
which isnt to unusual for me.Because of giddings state school Im a pretty stearn and rugged sometimes dangerous person
& thats not who I want to be,
I have to work hard at not bieng hard on myself and others when I feel like Im being attacked verbaly
or physacly I go into offence mode and I wont back down no matter what the damage
so I dont socialize with people unless I have to.
I live a lonely life by my choice and I havent known love yet not sure Im capable.
I married kisha because i got her pregnant and
I wanted to be responsible for Devian and didnt want him to suffer as I did.
But I was never in love with kish but always tried to make her as happy as I could
and provide for her and Dev but
I could never be as affectionate as she needed me to be,to her Im a cold hearted person and to me she is a nuisance.but I do care...