if you're clever, than I'm attractive!...;)...:D Fine, so you're clever! but this almost seems like theres an absence of hope, even though thats the only thing that keeps you hanging on. I'm glad you've begun writing again, your pages have been baren of new material, and your new material shows growth and yet remanisent of words and portraits conveyed b4. "hate breeds hate" not original, but neither are chocolate chip cookies, and they're hard to not like, much like this. Reach further, dig deaper, and remember, your biggest flaws are you're undeveloped skills!
I agree completely with andrea....my fav. line was: remembering how to hate; still forgetting how to live....that really spoke to me...we all know how to hate someone ;but we can't get to where we want in life what we want to do what makes us happy but we always have that hate...and to the question at the end of your poem is hate..regret...that what we have... but it was very interesting to read i enjoyed this very much...keep writing it was beautiful