Nothing will the be same again by sweetme16

Slowly I wake up today
Not opening my eyes

Hoping like crazy that it was all a bad dream
That you aren’t really gone
That I’m not really sitting it the hospital right now
That you’ll come through the door any second
And tell me to stop being a sleepyhead and get up

I slowly open my eyes
See the stark and sterile white everywhere
And instantly feel the tears welling up in my chest
Making me feel like I’m going to burst

The pain of knowing that you’re gone forever
Makes me want to throw up
Because its simply too much to bear

Then the irony of it all
Suddenly hits me
I want to scream, why?
Why did god take you away from me?
Why now?
Why you?

Why just when I’d finally really found you
I’d finally stopped being stupid
And admitted what you really meant to me

My last memories of you are filled with happiness
I remember us getting in the car
The two happiest people in the world
Totally oblivious to the hard facts of life
Both silently thanking god and praying the nothing ever gets in between us again
Trusting him to keep us together always
Not knowing about the cruel twist that same god was throwing towards us
Just around the corner

Silently driving down the old familiar road
Stealing glances at each other
Not willing to let the other out of sight
Even for a second
Afraid that someone would take it all away

Then seeing the car coming towards us
Thinking nothing of it
Too lost in our own happiness
To notice that the car was swerving all over the place

Suddenly being blinded by the other cars light
then feeling the crushing impact
Instinctively reaching for each other
To assure ourselves that the other was okay
Seeing our lives flash in front of our eyes

Then I hear you whispering
“goodbye”

Waking up 4 days later
In the early hours of the morning
Wondering where you were
If you were okay

Seeing the doctor come in
And along with him your family
Opening your mouth to ask about you
Knowing from the tears on their faces

That nothing would ever be the same again