You yell at me saying you want to get to know me when really you don't,
You think you know me, and yet you still judge me,
and pour out my wrongs every where,
you tell me to listen, yet all I can hear is the echo of my past mistakes, coming off the walls,
And ringing back to my ears,
You try to make it seem like I am a really bad person, yet if you'd just stop asking questions, and let the past go you would see how I really am,
You say you want to hangout, when realy you want to talk about my wrongs from the past,
I can only say sorry so many times before it means nothing and it is just a lightly used word, Can't I just show you over time or is that not good enough either,
I am a alcohoilc and the things I did I am accountable for, But if you would get to know me you'd see I am a different person when I am consumed with alcohol,
I can not seem to make amends with you at this time being only sober just over a week,
I am only on step one,and taking one day at a time,
Just listen to me for a few minutes, and open your ears, if you do things will fall in to place when the time is right,
But I can only take it one minute one hour one day at a time, Lets not re-hash the past,
Lets not worrie about what questions we can ask, if you want to know me as your sister in law, then put this in Gods hands,
and let the Lord work on me,
Like he is doing,
Things like this takes time, you'll see, just be pacient and wait, And you'll see, you dont even have to like me or trust me...just wait! |