Today I smelt raindrops awaking tears of pain,
Memories that faded in to yesterdays rain,
Looking back into the past,
Remembering things that shattered,
Like broken glass,
Insanity sunk in,
I was lost in a bottle,
I couldn't seem to win,
Blackouts would arise,
As time seemed to fly by,
Erasing moments that soon had me cry,
I sat in wonder of what had happened,
The night before,
I couldn't remember even walking in the door,
A hangover sets in and I put the bottles to my mouth again,
Unsure why I shake,
As my heartbeat seems to be in a race,
It had seemed that drinking was only what had worked to shut my nerves down,
As the sun shines in my window,
I see a mirro image of who I used to be,
And who I dont want to be,
Why can't I stop drinking I'd wonder,
But not ever have the answer,
So I sat and waited for night to fall,
Maybe the black outs wouldn't happen at all,
As I watched the rain,
I felt so unclean,My mind just pounderd on these unhealthy,thoughts as the rain felt like knifes,I thought I must of been insain,
But I wasnt the problem it was yesterdays Memories that brought the rain. |
Submission Name: Memories from rain
