Outside I am wonderful, I look good, without trends.
But cut open my skull, pop the hood, take a look..
I am not the same as them, the others - my friends.
To them i appear insane at times or when near..
But i'm not crazy, just different, not ill.
To think broader and non apparent is my skill.
I never accept things at face value
for it's them i will change into.
I like to think things through carefully timeously
before i make a choice.
As i decide no aspects are left to hide
I ready myself to sound my voice.
This is me, this is who I am inside.
But these be parts of me you can never know.
Because rejection I felt each time I decided to show.
So look at me now, soft, perfect and kind.
Never you'll know the need to fear my mind.
Just love me forever and hurting you will be never.
Play with my soul and I will swiftly take control.
They will never be able to piece you together.
So take me as you see me, percieve me as whole.
It's hard when the world slows to your prescence.
But you tend to get used to their indifference.
I have seen this I have suffered - lived this..
So for your safety not knowing who i really am is your best defence.
I'll dazzle and distract you from me by my kiss.
Surely all will seem intact and nothing amiss...
We're all programmed to feel a certain way.
This is who i am always & forever come what may.
Some choose to label and judge me day by day.
I warn you - leave me alone unless you want to pay.
Do not judge me or try to figure me - I am kind..
But please keep pushing me and I just might unwind.