Hi there. Having committed myself to answer your zeros I came to the conclusion that you are virtually always implicated in your love affairs that somehow never end in a happy way.
Although readers do sometimes dote on such affairs, the never-ending stream does get tiresome. I am not trying to be negative in anyway but I suggest you turn your poetry mind to writing just that as it is really within your scope as I see it. You can write some high level poetry I am sure.
I think that may also have a therapeutic effect on you to help you along your adventurous way.
I know you can if you may want to. I am just trying to be of assistance. Are you hiding form your own brilliance mayhap?Luv jm