I come to you now,
at this moment in my life
For I am in a deep state of depression.
I long to know why?!?
Why am I hurting?
Why was I part of your plan?
And certainly, why am I to be the one to put up with all this abuse?
I am not meant to take my own life,
For you did not allow that 12 gauge to do so,
nor those several drug over doses.
So why am I still here?
Why put me through hell and then NOT allow me to end it when I please?!
I am desperate for I cannot bear much more!
I am broken,
these events have taken their toll...
I am reaching out to you,
PLEASE.... grab a hold me of