I Can Feel by Kaygrl

Out of nowhere, a smile!
What a novelty when it’s been so long since I could say happy,
Humming along with songs that remind me of you,
And singing along with lyrics so true.
Consuming my mind in a laughter and daze,
In my head like the most welcome craze.
Giggling at you, playing like a grown child lost in the bliss of a new spout of heartbeats.
The flutter that takes over the pain,
And the realization that the pain is gone… And has been for a while.
Finally willing to admit that I’m ok,
Ok to say that I’m yours alone!
This scarred heart knows no more tears over the past and things that will never change.
Everything that’s happened has led me to here and now-
Led me to you and I wouldn’t change a thing.
All the past hurts and broken- ness are finally over.
Just relaxing in your arms calms my cluttered my mind,
Makes me feel like I can sleep without the terrors of the night.
Your kiss upon my lips is like jumping form heights and knowing you’re right there beside me to jump with me. ..
And spreading my wings in fright, I’ll learn not to be afraid in time,
Because in time I’ll be finally so ok.
Enough to hear the smile in your voice,
And to close my eyes and be able to open them without being afraid of what I will see.
A healthy breath to breathe without tension of underlying influences to ruin this completely.
I won’t let this go… I won’t let anyone tell me what to feel…
What to think… Never let a soul but my own control me.
I won’t wake up if I’m dreaming,
I won’t sleep if I’m not.
I’m not closing my eyes or turning my back,
I’m going to let this burn and burn and never burn out.
My heart won’t be taken from me again…
I’m not going through that again.