When you said you loved me
I thought could this be true?
Over and over again you proved it
Until I thought I knew.
So many times I questioned
could he love someone like me?
Yet every time I needed
When I looked right there you'd be.
All these years I struggled
to believe in what you said.
Fighting always the demons
that warred inside my head.
Then finally at last I believed it
Believed that love declared.
Believed you truly love me
the demons were no longer barred.
My world it seemed then crumbled
In a flash what I knew was gone.
I was waking all alone
my heart screaming I'd been so wrong.
All the promises I believed in
the ones I'd fought against through time.
Were disappearing so very quickly
and I was losing what was mine.
I know in my heart he still loves me
that his words still had to be true.
But those demons now are louder
and hope is now quieter too.
Leaving my soul splintered
questioning all I have known.
Trying to hold on and have faith
when inside my demons have grown.
Can I again believe him?
Believe what he says is true.
That he really wants to come home
and home is with me and not you.
Inside my head my demons
are screaming louder still.
Telling me they are only words
screaming at me they can't be real.
How do I go back now
to that place that once was warm?
To the place I believed he loved me
and my demons screamed no more?