This touched me because it really hit home with a particular instance in my life that recently occurred. I had been hiding something for essentially my entire life, since the age of 8. -I'm 20, almost 21, now. You are right; it is always such a liberating feeling to unleash what you have been holding back. I know the feeling personally. It feels all the more better, as well as painful at first, when you leave the fear behind.
My apologies, I began to blab about my situation. Shutting up. In short, this work was impressive and holds a lot of truth, especially concerning heavy situations.
"Guard of gun" was confusing at first I must say, personally; however, after reading the whole thing, I made connections throughout the whole piece. Regret can be powerful, powerful enough to push one to finally reach for the longed for peace.
Thanks for the indirect support.