All my friends say I thrive on misery
And who's to say they're wrong?
Every time things start going right
I feel the need to sabotage my life
He was the first good thing in a while
At least to appear in my gloomy existence
Within six weeks I manage to drive him away
Now I can't figure out how to get him to stay
Wide awake while the whole world sleeps
Screaming, crying, cutting, bleeding
Trying to ignore the feeling as my heart breaks
Why is it that to open my eyes this is what it takes?
Alone again, numb, jaded, and scared
Even though I had told myself to be prepared
Anything can happen, change waits for no one
If life sails along too smoothly, then my world will come undone
I don't know what the future will bring me
But if it's anything like my past, it can stay where it is
I can't handle more disappointment, or causing it
When will I learn from my mistakes? |
Submission Name: FFS
