I'm not exactly sure what to think. Sometimes I feel like I have no choice, but in all honesty, I don't want this. I want nothing to do with this place or these people but they just don't seem to leave—especially you. I wish you would stay out of my mind. But I can’t stop thinking about you and you consume my every waking moment. I want my thoughts to be filled with the Ultimate but you won’t allow it. I want my life to be about Him but you won’t allow it. I want to love, be loved, and attain Him, but you won’t allow it. How can I live when you are stealing my every thought and destroying what has taken me so long to maintain? How can I survive with the knowledge that my thoughts involve you, but I have no place in yours? How can I not feel pathetic when I think about how much I like you and how much I wish you could feel the same way, but you don’t even notice? You look at me like you look at her. You talk to me like you talk to the others. You ignore me like you ignore him. Why can’t I be the one? Why do I feel so inferior in the eyes of someone who could care less? Why can’t I find someone who feels the same way? WHY? |
Submission Name: Why?
