A few minutes past midnight and the rain
Hits the front steps and splatters to land
On our toes and knees and mists our faces
But your breath is hot on my cheek and
Your arms are locked around me and
Your legs tangled with mine and ive never
Felt more safe and content in my life.
We leave the front door open and lay there
Staring out into the roaring frantic darkness
The wind runs his fingers through our hair
The rain kisses our faces every few moments
And a flash of light burns a scar in the sky
We both smile, awed at the beauty of it all.
But the thunder was our favorite part
When he growled we felt the air around us
Tremble, but we breathed in his anger.
Lightening always reminded me of angels,
And id whisper prayers for them in my
Baby lisp and tell God in a firm little voice
That He better keep them safe tonight.
And then Id bury my face in your neck
And id let your breathing rock me to sleep.
You know I still go for walks in the rain.
Especially thunderstorms, especially at night.
Because thereís no one there to bother me,
Not even the crazy 3 am dog walking couples,
Even cars race by in a hurry to be home in their
warm cozy beds. But sleep isnt very comforting anymore,
Not without your lullabies in my ear and
Your breath warming the back of my neck,
But i still curl up like i used to, only now
Itís not your arms around me, its just me and the covers,
They donít hold me the same.
I miss you I miss you I miss you.
Sometimes id wake at night and I couldnít
feel your arms around me and the bed was cold
Beside me and id jerk upright in bed and id just panic,
Id be so scared, like the demons were just everywhere
And they were all clawing at me and I didnít know
What else to do, so id just cry until you heard me,
And youíd tell me itís okay and you were just getting
a midnight snack or you were in the bathroom
Or you were knitting in your rocking chair and
You always promised youíd be right back, go back to sleep baby.
But you know Iíd watch you walk away and I never fell asleep
Until you came back, maybe just a few minutes, maybe hours,
But I always stayed awake until you came back and held me
and then everything was okay again, and I could sleep.
Maybe thatís why I have such trouble sleeping.