My father
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I don't know where to start. How can I after all these years? Everyone knows you But my own father disappears I never saw your face. Never knew what I couldn't say. To stand up strong with my "daddy" to always feel okay. I cried myself to sleep. I wanted what everyone seemed to have. A reason to smile and laugh A reason to be glad. Their words would trip me. When I tried to run away from their lies. Surely my father loved me. Couldn't they see it in my eyes? I went through hell growing up. Trying to prove myself wrong. Thought that were once full of love turned rotten through it all. how dare you leave me? couldn't you see the way I was? who I was born to be. who I would soon become. I never hated you. I still never will. I just didn't know you. And my idol was soon killed. so my father, tell me everything that you want. I have nothing left to give. So nothing might be what you got. I wished sometimes I knew you. oh, the things we could say. I want to be stronger sometimes. to show you my heart won't give away. I want to be better so when you met me you can see. nothing you did changed the woman I was born to be. I'm proud of you dear abyss surely one day you will see. the daughter you also have is the one and only me. I know in my sister's shadow I can't often be everyone's light. you are truely something different often sometimes not right. but whatever the choices you made mistakes will always be mistakes. I find it hard to love you. but I give more than I take. when I meet you for the frist time. try not to be surprised. I don't always look this harden. I'm just trying not to cry.

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