The thing that you might not understand is that, i'm losing any grip that i still had left on sanity.
This anger won't subside, i can't just make it go away.
It's not my fault, i'm not making excuses for being a bitch, i'm not making excuses at all.
I'm losing my mind. I shake, i twitch, i cry.
I find myself rocking back and forth, and sometimes i don't even know why, but then i realize that it sooths me.
i don't want these feelings, these emotions that i can no longer hold in.
I can't paint a smile on my face every day, and act as if everything is okay, because after a while, all that anger, all that tension, and the hurting, the pain, everything building up, pierces me from the inside out like knives trying to escape from my soul.
I can no longer hold on to who i used to be, because i don't even know who i used to be. I am unrecognizable even to myself.