Deceit…Oh please! Don’t let this pain be real! A dream…Its only a dream…I’m going to wake up, and be just fine. But…My heart won’t stop breaking…Please…Let me die. At least then my soul will finally be at peace.
But alas, no solace. No relief washes over me as I read the letter that has found its way into my hands. Two deaths. Two. The first, is my beloved, and the second will be me. If my beloved does not walk on this luscious, dying Earth, than neither shall I. For what world is this if I am utterly alone? But wait, I am alone. I always have been alone…From the beginning. I see that now. My beloved was never my beloved, but a mass of false energy and life.
It all was a lie.
Oh God! Just let me perish into the depths of hell! Let my soul burn in sorrow for the wrong I have caused myself! For living here on earth is no better than in heaven where my Father calls out to me in sadness. My pain is too much to bear. Please…End my suffering with salvation…With the truth.