What's the point? Psh. Oh how therapeutic it is! Oh how it eases the mind, the soul... Why isn't it working now?! Secretly, I know why. Can I face it? NO. I am so many regrets... Regrets? Yes and no. What am I supposed to do about them? Absolutely nothing. I am cursed with them for the rest of my life.
Oh dear Lord.
I have not been in this much turmoil in so damn long. This is not who I am; this is NOT who I want to be... Or is this who I am?? Noo. Oh God please no....
Reverting back would be sooooo easy.... Sooooo smooth.....
NO! I have come so far...
It does NOT feel like it.
Not at all.
I have to hold strong, keep believing. Psh..... Really?
I can never make up my mind. Why do I feel this way???? I am so conflicted!
Pretend I don't exist.
....even if I beg.
I am not worth it.