Drifting in and out of an artificial memory slide
concocting a memory of natural ingredients
remembering what I want to and not what killed me inside
A darker side of me a patchwork abomination.. a deviance.
Waking to a shaken condemned tin-can in the sun
sleeping beauty doesn't want to wake from her coma
life is unsound and full of unwanted mistakes of the gun
just lie back and take another soma.
Relax they say because life is so short
Tension builds and I feel the acidic bile inside my throat
my insides start to contort...
the memories surround my prison like moat.
I keep my vicious side swimming around my castle
protect me from harm oh sweet callused inner child
Im not trying to unthread your halos tassel...
please write me a script doc my thoughts aren't mild.
Voices inside my head I try to ignore
they contemplate evil schemes to dominate the world
this isn't what I was like before....
my heart is shriveled so sick and so curled.
True loves kiss can't resuscitate me from this sleep
nor can his touch on my cold white cheek
the feeling of numbness injects me so deep
Im the outsider, the loner, but most of all the freak...