Description: A poem I wrote at least two years ago, being bi-polar I go from extreme sadness to extreme bouts of hapiness. This is very true to life. I didn't have any hope that I would meet this person I talk about in the poem, one who gets me. Life suprized me and that person is sitting beside me. I'm a very lucky girl, especially considering that I'm so complicated! He is a dream come true. So this poem was questioning life and now it is unfolding as I speak.
I'm not sure if I should let go,
or keep holding on.
I feel so lost and all alone.
Nothing goes right, something
is always wrong.
I laugh it off, and keep moving on.
Anxiously awaiting the moment
someone comes along and
makes it all better.
Living in disbelief.
Thinking of what I should say in
the very last letter.
One minute I'm happy, the next
For a little while I'm enjoying life.
For a little while I regret it!!!
Wondering why I get up, just to
fall back down.
Wondering why no one notices my
smile is just a frown.
My mistakes stay with me everyday.
All of my friends just keep walking away.
No one really listens!!!!
I'm so deep, all I want is someone
that gets my meaning.
Will I ever find that someone, or
will I just keep dreaming?
Will I be brave enough to take the
Will I be brave enough to face
What will I be if I ever grow up?
Who will I please and who will
I scare away?
What will I miss if I just quit trying?
I am so pleased with my petty things.
I am so dissapointed with my
When will I do this, when will I
When will I escape lifes little traps?
If I don't make it, who will I have
Who will miss me?
Who will I crush?
Who will move on and never
say my name?
Who will be the first to see I am
not playing games?
This is not for attention and no
one is to blame.
I can't stand stand all of the confusion.
I'm so wrapped up in everyone's
I try so hard to be what everyone
thinks I should be.
I just want to be what makes me happy!
I'm afraid of who would be dissapointed,
so I keep hiding to see what time brings.
Waiting to surface and let someone in on
What if they couldn't help?
What if they didn't care?
Has anyone ever had these thoughts I have?
It's enough to drive one mad!!!!!