I am writing you in hopes of finding answers I do not have expectations nor am I relying on a response from you. I'd like to know why you choose me to pray on? Why my family? Longing for a father figure I was and this indeed helped you accomplish your goal in abusing me, my need for a father figure I was willing to do anything for you and this is when you saw your opportunity arise.
I have lost my family due to you and your actions. I am who I am today due to your sexual and verbal abuse towards me as a child... Once again I ask you ...
I long for your presence each day. I wonder what jail is like for you and each day is different... I at times regret my choice in turning you, and yet other days I only wish my Mother whom allowed me to be abused for your money was in the cell next to you!
I wish you No harm, I do not wish of you to die a slow and painful death. For if I did I'd be no better than yourself. All I search for in this life is answers... answers I may never find not in this life time anyway. And this is okay I have expected this.
One day I will come visit you! This day will be a day of letting go, forgetting, forgiving. On this day of my visit will be the day I have succeeded in proving you all wrong! Showing My Mother even with her own stupidity and ignorance toward my situation I made it! Proving to my grand parents that I am not as worthless as they see me! Last but certainly not least! I will be personally there to show you... YES YOU that I am not your biological daughter... I am me and I will not end my life due to your actions! Nor will I allow your sexual abuse to control me or my life!!!!
You are the fuel to this fire from within and I am not afriad to admit this! I've had an inferno from within me since the day you touched me 10yrs ago. I never cease from achieving my goal and this is proving you wrong showing myself and others and I am SOMEONE I am NOT a nobody!!!