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    dots Submission Name: Insecuritiesdots

    Author: jackz
    ASL Info:    24/F/OH
    Elite Ratio:    3.76 - 591/622/380
    Words: 168
    Class/Type: Fanfic/Depressed
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    The hands on the clock are always moving,
    No matter what state of mind I may or may not be in.
    This I am sure of.

    Every morning the sun rises
    Every night the sun will set
    This I am sure of.

    Although I have these assurances in my life...

    I am filled with so many insecurities
    All this doubt

    At age 18 I left a home in which I was abused in,
    At age 19 I put that person where he belongs
    At age 20 I am recovering from a self inflicted gun shot wound.

    Depression is only a tip of the ice burg
    Hatred for myself is only the beginning of my story

    Disgusted... I am... with myself
    For I am no longer a strong person
    I have failed myself

    More than that,
    I have proven to those whom told me I'd fail...
    I have proven them right...

    This is what saddens me the most

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      You have not failed YOU ARE HERE AND ALIVE!!!
    and anyone who told you that you were going to fail can pardon my mouth GO [censored] THEMSELVES>

    I worry about you and hope you are ok
    | Posted on 2010-07-31 00:00:00 | by trynfinity | [ Reply to This ]
      -_-, Jackie I understand the feelings.I do.Two days after my 18th birthday, I sat in the enmergency room to be treated for self mutilation.20+ superficial ones even though I tried to tear my left arm off.I don't cut anymore fortunately.But the thing is,is that we are going through cycles of adulthood, 18 21 23 25 28.Your on the second one which is the crossroad.This is science J.Your getting ready to go through something dramatic that will change you for the better.Be optimistic not pessimistic.I know you get depressed and that's cool because we fall in dispair and get back the [censored] up and achieve.OMG! Everything I just explained is on the concept of Predator.Those cycles that we the young go thru and rise from that [censored].Don't hate yourself Jackie.Love yourself.You are a writer with profound feelings.Your beautiful, you've just been hurt and disappointed.Do some soul searching We're not perfect and I can't judge you cause of your past but I'm not down with reading and clicking away something I can understand but refuse to embark on.

    You should talk to God about everything.I'm not religious,dont know if u know or not.It does'nt hurt to try then become repititive.Tears are liquid prayers when pain comes out but you hang in there.Battle the demons and when I promise you you'll have tears of joy.Mark my words.

    Peace J.
    | Posted on 2010-07-24 00:00:00 | by Rex Gold | [ Reply to This ]

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