I wish to know a life without so much tragedy,
a heart littered with countless holes,
soul so blackened by pain and hurt,
not even the brightest
light could lighten
Pain given to me by others
and then pain I have brought upon myself
I wish to not live with these scars
I wish to believe the lies I tell others
Not accepting I
put that gun to MY
I pulled that TRIGGER
You look up "Failure"
in the dictionary
My name will be the first,
if not the ONLY
Who do know that can point a 12gauge at point blank range
at their own stomach ...
STILL BE HERE?
I am not paralyzed
I am not physically hurt
I am fully healed
Why do I still feel just as broken as I did that night?
I am hurting deep within this blackened
soul of mine....