Although your question might not be directed at the reader I thought I would answer . It could be something as simple as having your super ego make off with your alter ego leaving your ego mired and wallowing in self doubt and feelings of inadequacy . I have a friend who has night terrors . I feel this is a by-product of being taken advantage of at a young age by her uncle . Upon reading this piece I get the impression someone close to you who should be a part of the warmth of your dreams is acting hostile , and that this is something new . I can understand how that could be disconcerting and leave you feeling empty . I empathize . I hope your futurities are full of timely epiphanies and reversal of fortunes . If not then I guess your just going to have to get down and get over it .