everyone falls in love. its a given. thats all i hear about now days. everyone is hooking up or getting married. now, i dont envy them because im single, but instead im happy for them. half the times i helped them out in one way or another.
alot of people get the wrong idea. they think, "oh aarons always getting getting his heart broken, he must hate us." then they go off saying more senseless shit about other people. well dammit, theyre wrong. i would rather keep people together rather than break them up. my deeds.... are unseen, kinda like everyone here sees me. which is my point, im not seen. im well-known, but when amongst crowds, im never seen. get my picture? but when i AM seen, normally by complete strangers either in a crisis around me or in jail, we talk, and i somehow help them. in many cases: their relationships. ive even run into a few people in a store and they thank me. theyre getting married and having kids. im happy for them.
now, whats bothering me IS my single status. not the fact that im single... but the fact that i love someone i shouldnt. my question, why? why do i love her? i KNOW she isnt meant to be mine, and yet.... im sure everyone has been there. you love someone thats with someone else. thats pretty much it right there.
im afriad i cant leave you witha better example than this:
for her id do the stupidest thing i could do, i could literally tear my heart out of my chest and hold it out to her, hoping that she would take it, rather than turn and walk away leaving me invisible like everyone else.
heh. what a fitting way to die, no?