This is excellent indeed. The truth it speaks to is one most anyone one that isn't near perfect can connect with. We have all laughed at someone’s pain, only to realize latter it was something more serious. Take heart though, the gnawing guilt is proof that despite your mischievous, jovial nature you are a decent human being somewhere at your core.
I will say that I kind of got some of this caught in my throat and stumbled a bit. Not sure if that was a "you" or "me" issue. I love the flow and structure, and it is over all a very beautiful piece. If I were forced to critic it I would have to say that for one reason or another line, "Blood on the Tracks on loop" doesn’t sit well with me for some reason. Again, I m not too sure if that is a "you" or "me" problem. Nicely done...
You should never let your friends down with an abrupt BANG.
I really like this, it's quite good, brings to mind a memory I'd like to forget (I hope I will...), of when Love becomes Something Else. We all leave scars, especially when we shatter the Trust and cut the heart open wide.
And so it bleeds.... and even when it stops, the blood has its own ghost.