Description: i'm lost and am trying to find my way
when will I learn
how do I stop being my own worst enemy?
where will this drug induced depression lead me next
how far will it have to go
or how many people will I have to hurt
to see that clearly I am making such horrible choices?
lost deep within my own sorrows
drowning I am in my pool of tears
loosing this battle I am
slowly giving into its ways I surely will..
I definitely agree with Jim's comment.
This here capitalized the importance of what needs to be done from inside and what must be done by not submitting into falling back into that place you trying extremely hard to shake away from.
I can totally relate with the fact that addiction one can have can also hurt others who are around you witnessing the addiction.
This right here was a period or deep moment of realization from your inner self telling you what is wrong.And what you will move forward away from.
Me, personally.I know you'll make it.
Make it through the journey, rising from all the repulsiveness you don't want apart of you.
Time will just have it's say so and with that you'll progress.But I don't want you to continue putting yourself down in sinking into depression.
You've been honest with yourself for soo long that I don't think I can turn the other way from it as a peer.
Proof is in the the pudding. You know what you're feeling now? Imagine yourself deeper about 2,000 feet... that's when it really hurts. My point is, it only stops when you're dead. Make up your mind and decide..."Do I want to live? Or do I want to die slowly, and drag as many people down with me as I can?"
Jackz, I don't know if you are just writing from experience or this is your current mood. If it is experience warning others off drugs then it does the job. If it is your current state, don't let yourself go back to a bottomless pit with not hope, no love and no way out.
There is way out, there is a solution. I have been exactly where you are. You don't have to go as far as some of us did. If you need help it is out there. I know this is not a critique but I want you to know there is a solution. I could not stop for years until I found a solution that works in every case you can too.