Description: This is dedicated to my extended family (grandparents and the like) for a huge falling out that they're causing because I sent a message with some uncouth comments that I wanted to keep between us. I can't be my own person, and this is my message to them, that they will never receive.
Who I Am -------------------------------------------
Who I am
I don't know what you want me to say
I have no idea who you want me to be
Frankly, I don't care because
I'll still be me.
I'll still be untrusting and naive
I'll still have to see to believe
I'll still be emotionless.
I'll try hard as I want
I'll think I've finally got it down
But it'll come to that fatal moment
And I'll let myself fall through.
Through the gap that has formed in my mind
Between reality and my mind
I hope you're not intending to find me
Because I'm not even sure I exist.
I could be a figment in your imagination
Or a shadow who hasn't left yet
An echo of another life
Of a fading memory from a distant past
No matter what
I don't think I'm truly meant to last.
I'm feeble and weak
All talk and no action
A writer I can try to be
A leader I can pretend to be
Myself, I don't know how to be
So what am I to do?
I'll just sit here and wait
Wait for the abandonment
Wait for the worst of news
Wait for the lies to start to spew
From the mouths of those I attempted to trust
I lean on the ones whom I do
Though it isn't many, it's all that I need
Who I am
i can completely say i know how you feel. im going through something similiar right now, my grandparents are upset with the person im becoming. but honestly you dont need any one else to approve of you, just yourself. as long as your happy with who you are then that should be good enough for any or everyone else. and if they cant see that then they obviously never knew you or understood you. just remember just up for what you believe and always be honest to yourself.