You know what I think, line for line, you should write a reflection to this, but on the greener side of the pasture, or rather as someone once told me, turn the side you have into something green. Just an idea, I would really be excited to see what you could come up with, you are a very creative writer and down to earth at the same time, makes it easy to relate to.
I hope that you know that You are thought of. You are cared for and there are those out there whose lives would be greatly affected if you were no longer here.
That being said..... Go eat a cheesburger!! hehe
I really hope that you do "keep fighting" and " standing tall" Because I know that you have the strength.
If you need me call anytime like I said day or night,