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    dots Submission Name: Smothering Loverdots

    Author: ratmo
    ASL Info:    18/?/Universal
    Elite Ratio:    2.68 - 2/5/8
    Words: 535
    Class/Type: Poetry/Love
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    dotsSmothering Loverdots

    Rearrange bones and skin
    so I can begin a verse to rehearse,
    to retrain.
    Campaign these words for true votes,
    but demote me because you can't quote me.

    Why can't you just remember me?
    Dismember me, then rediscover me in your memory.
    Uncover the happy me
    so I can be just as free
    as you are...

    Why can't you just remember me?
    December me, May me,
    and sometimes obey me.
    When I watch out for you,
    I put my life on hold,
    grow cold with waiting,
    creating a sense of perfection
    from your rags of ill-perfection.
    Connection to me requires liars like you
    to give truth.
    Who knew our life would turn out like this?
    Curse or gift, we're stuck like this
    until Eternity rips us, snips us
    from our life lines for life's design.
    Divine intervention has never felt this defined
    in my life.

    I hate you when you smother me,
    kisses the cover me.
    A lover that hovers over me,
    asphyxiates, dictates all of me.
    You'd rather control me than console me.
    You know me but don't know shit about me.
    I feel shame to push you away,
    disobey your words for freedom and self-control,
    patrol my fortress as fury courses
    through the collapsing tunnels of my veins
    that you chained with your love and your kiss.
    I miss my solitude,
    my teasing prelude that led you to my bliss.

    You're perfect for me
    'cause no one else would love me.
    No one could tolerate my debates, my mistakes.
    No one would wake me with elbows and hands,
    or understand my incurable rages,
    my self-made cages.
    The torn pages that are my internal organs.
    Mind a broken machine,
    eyes like a gorgon's.
    Words to me are like weapons
    fired from choired voices
    that are all of me,
    not just a part of me.
    Like you're a part of me,
    trying to take all of me.
    Offering marriage when I feel like a miscarriage
    of Life, who couldn't give birth to a human free of strife.
    I'm not meant to be a wife.

    I didn't mean for you to deem me worthy
    of your love that's true.
    I didn't eharmony you into my life.
    I didn't match.com your existence
    but rather resisted your persistance.
    I have to admit it:
    I was excited to be reunited
    into a relationship,
    but my bitterness nearly made you quit.
    I don't know if I'm meant for this.

    Please understand that I care about you,
    will try to support all that you do,
    but you beg for my meds to be taken
    'cause you're shaken by what I've said,
    the blood and scratches that litter my head.
    My breakdowns wear down your tolerance.
    My freakouts and blowups test all your patience.
    And you plead that I need antidepressants
    to make me human.
    What am I to you if not human?

    I'm crushed by your words,
    rushed to be heard,
    but misspeak, grow weak
    with bloody feet from walking.
    Beside me, you're talking.
    So I won't finish this poem
    because you've lost interest.
    My words make no difference.
    To you, the real me, is nonexistent.

    11:42 AM
    Thursday, 9 December 2010

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    ||| Comments |||
      Hmmm "kisses the cover me."
    Was that suppose to be "kisses that cover me"?
    If not then okay.

    This brings to mind an imbalance that will never be corrected neighboring disconnection casting wounds on both partners who are beginning to split and goes separate ways because of difficulties that can no longer be stood, bared or go on with living some sort of lie or "lies" that plays a huge part on what both persons strongly think and believe of each other but one can not see all that is inside of the opposite who is serving oneself a determination of leaving and getting the hell out of mix up.
    Relationships, the whole girlfriend boyfriend, fiance situation is always stress consuming and love can be blind...<<Hoping that [censored] came out right.

    Strong emotions and time spent to put together for such a write.

    | Posted on 2011-01-01 00:00:00 | by Rex Gold | [ Reply to This ]

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