I feel like this occurred before or was it merely a dream?
Each day collides into the next and every week quickly becomes the next month. When there is no exact time between awake and sleeping, you forget about time, you forget about a lot of things.
You hear things that are not there and see things that do not belong. If not for this taut thread of sanity these things would be passed off for reality.
Every word said doesn't sound right, every word written looks to be spelled wrong. Even though you struggle to convince yourself, it's right, a part of you continually says that's wrong.
You stare at things for so long they burn into your brain and will randomly return to your mind when you close your eyes.
There are faces you've never seen before, names you've never heard before, yet each one gives you a feeling you've always felt.
Fear, protection and you find yourself calling out for them when you are afraid. They don't appear in front of you but you feel them there before you as if they were a solid being.
You release your jaw that has been clenched so tight a headache pounds away at your last threads. You itch, not only on the outside but on the inside.
Even though you are so tired, your body wants to run, run through the night and never look back. You don't though, you stay still, so still you forget about your own body. You close your eyes and beg yourself, your body, to let you just sleep. But it never comes.
The silence of everyone else sleeping fills you with an inextinguishable envy. Why them? you wonder aloud, as if you were asking one of the ghosts standing at the foot of your bed.
In the end you achieve sleep, though not for long because the day is coming and everyone will expect you to live a normal life. Carry out a normal day, when everything is far from normal. You savor any moments of dreaming you may have for you don't know when they will return.