this isn't how i saw myself,
confident and full of fun,
happy and responsible,
this brutal war's been finally won.
Last chapter has come to a close,
it just took that careful word
and the silence that came after
for me to realize what I'd heard.
I was hurting both of us,
pushing you out ever more,
begging you to come back in,
watching you walk through that door.
Your shadow kept receding,
Each step bringing more despair
I felt rejection setting in
thinking this was only fair.
the days just kept on passing by,
numbness growing in my chest
replacing all the sadness till
i didn't know which one was best.
I was sick of feeling bad or worse,
and numb is worse than dead.
it's knowing I could feel alive
If I weren't locked inside my head.
I thought of you, remembered us,
and those moments I was free.
I bit the bullet, got some help,
It's time I started liking me.
Out of the corner of my eye,
A silhouette was creeping in
gradually taking a shape,
it's so good to meet again.