A work in progress by slybee22

My essence it is more than that which can be seen by the eye. But In my eyes you get a glimpse and my words are its proverbs. I swim the oceans of my soul; or rather I have nearly, for I fear not to drown. My thrust for life keeps me in the waters and my arts keep me swimming and diving deeper, in my lust to feel and express what has being found.

Life is the great waters full of emotions and discoveries of (not hidden but) unknown truths.
My essence swims these waters as dose the essence of every living soul.

Some how, I have not drowned in these waters not (as so many others confused & Tired.) There are those how just stop swimming and just sink into cold dark depths of the waters of life. Once they reach the bottom they are faced with a decision “stay at the bottom in constant misery, their only consolation being death “or swim to live! Fight your way back up" I know this for I have been at the bottom and I chose to live.

Now my life is full of beauty marvels & ominous sorrows but what, is the former without the later.
How would one know life if there was no death, If you never know hate can you truly know love.

As I swim I find new questions and new realizations one day my time in the water will end and I will reach the shores of something new.

I will say goodbye to life’s waters and start a journey new.

Still I am here still I swim on, every once in a while I hit a downward draft threatening to pull me under I gasp for air, receiving only water. Panic rains triumphant throughout me.
This is the end!
It will pull me under!
I will never again rise from this oceans bottomless pit!

I am suddenly filled with safe pity, self loathing and regret.
Regrets?
I have no regret.
what ever I have done, whatever mistakes I have made are all a part of who I am for I have over come them all, I learned from them all , I can learn from this, If I can survive this , I will be stronger.

I calm down I relax myself (I am still being pulled under) I close my eyes and I go with the flow. I feel as if I would explode any second. My entire body feels this enormous pressure.

I feel as if I am going to die, but slowly the pressure is released I am flowing in water not completely present. I am moving! A little at first then faster and faster I can feel the water around me. I cut through is as a diver only more constant. I feel I rush in me, I feel pain Similar to that of my birth and this pain fades away from me.

In the next instant I feel myself breaking through the barrier of the water and the air I am flying I gasp for air.
I look down all the swimming souls I see the horizon.
I dive back into the water and I'm swim again.

These waters can be so rough and unforgiving and so calm and mellow. My journey is not your journey because we all make our own waves in these waters. The waves we make shape our journey through these waters.