the moment after many months where
Your words took me by surprise
for I'm not really even sure that I know
what they mean.
Its a word used to plug holes & gaps
of all shapes an sizes,
a word construed into a holiday
of pink & red, chocolates & flowers,
a word conveyed as pain & joy
in songs, books, movies.
Then there's the two of us;
I'm not sure which hole to plug with this word-
where it fits best.
It's not this word I don't wish to fall in to
but rather the fear and the potential of pain.
This is the same moment where after many years
of hard work and self exploration
I am lost, turned upside down, unsure.
I do not wish to consume you,
breathe you in as oxygen,
and spit you out as carbon dioxide.
I would change you to your very core;
this is your fare warning.