I remember those days as if it were yesterday
I remember the abuse
The denial that came with the abuse
I remember the blinders she wore
Due to his bank account
Never mind her daughters safety
I long to forget the weeks I taped all our conversation
Little did he know?
For I would soon be taking those tapes to the police station
I wish to erase the memories of my entire drug use, drug over doses
As well as that night I choose to end my life with that 12 gauge shot gun
Each night as others are sleeping I am re-living
I vividly remember when and where you touched me
I distinctly recall my mother not helping me when in need
All those nights and days I spend doped up on heroin, coke, and pills
I can see those Emergency room lights now as they wheeled me in for surgery,
Hear people ask me Why?
Its all so distant yet so close as if these events aspired yesterday
Why am I in such torment.