I wake up to the darkness
to desperation, I am alone.
No longer are you beside me,
your arms no longer home.
Now I sit in screaming quiet in souless solitude.
A constant battle with my demons my heart and mind a feud.
Wishing I could change me
could fix what isn't right.
Knowing in truth it's useless
I'll never be worth the fight.
Once there was such safety
a place I thought was true.
Promises of love always forever
I was a fool to dream of you.
No longer there to save me
only the darkness will I find. Unworthy of what you gave me
I've become the trash you left behind.
this is tough to read...such a giving up...letting oneself lose a sense of worth because of another person...
it is well done..some really good lines..."your arms no longer home"
"screaming quiet" a nice oxymoron...might have been used a few times before, but fits here nicely.
but this turns sadder for me when i read,
"I'll never be worth the fight"
no one is worth losing our self-esteem over...no one.