Once had the feeling of acceptance within this family I currently reside within
Now feelings of betrayal and foolishness only exists within me
Lost I am
Misguided I have been
For if I do not belong here, then where do I belong?
If these people I am with now cannot ... will not accept me
Then I must ask who will?
Yes I am a sinner
I have made several mistakes in my life
Nevertheless I plead to you now
I'm begging you to understand I have changed my ways
I have learned from my past mistakes!
Yet, my past haunts me each day
As I have seen this family who once accepted me
Allowed me into their hearts...
Now rejection only lies between us all
The tension can be cut with a knife
All due to the darkness that seems to constantly consumes any good in this life I lead.
Good write. you can feel the feeling inside it. The lost and mangled life you led and there is a ray of open that is quickly being extinguished where once the warm light of love dwells. Past always finds it way to us. Just make the past a part of the present you and embrace the mistakes made as great lessons. Hiding from them makes them manifest in ugly and unpredictable ways. Lovely write i hope you the best. Times of trial are what makes grey hairs and gives us the merit to advice when we are old.