I hate seeing the sun set
Deep beyond the trees
Within those baby blue clouds
The beautiful scene is deceiving
For I know what is to come
The darkness creeps in
Time draws out like a blade during these hours of darkness
Wishing only to win this war
The war of constantly remembering
Its a domino effect
If I remember the abuse
Then I'm going to remember my drug addiction
Next would be the night I pulled the trigger of the12 gauge shot gun...
Forever scaring myself.. Forcing myself to remember this decision
It only goes downhill from here
3am now but before I know it, it'll be time to begin my day
My eyes bloodshot
This body limp and exhausted
For these memories are disturbing and emtionally draining
Yet, I go on...
Forcing myself to believe the following night will be different
That this is not my fate!
Constantly remembering the events that have shaped me
That has transformed me.. into this numb-unemotional person that now sits at the keyboard, before you.
I am and forever will be a broken soul..
Forever Lost Within the Darkness